Change, the only constant element of life

That is my mantra these days as I sit waiting for my phone to ring with another job possibility. Another one could be, "this too shall pass", or one of my favorites as my kids were growing up, "it's just a phase!" All these sayings pass through my mind when the work "drought" times come and I just can not figure out my next move.

But, that, too, is right in front of me, turn it into music! Ahhh! So simple. . .or is it? When I let my mind fill up with other thoughts, it becomes very difficult to focus on other ideas. . .thus, the term, "losing focus!" I DO have that option, though, I do have a choice! Life is full of choices that we are consciously or unconsciously making everyday! We either let our emotions or outside influences make our decisions for us or we consciously make them. The former seems to be easy route. Why?

I let myself get involved in a couple of arguments lately. I know better than that! I am not a good arguer. My emotions tend to take over and I end up sputtering and spewing words in hopes that the right ones will come tumbling out! But the right ones almost always tend to fail me at those moments because my emotions are in control!

My playing is the same way! When I get emotionally worked up, I make mistakes! It doesn't mean that I shouldn't play with emotion, but simply letting it go through me instead of "supercharging" my emotions to the point of becoming "out of control!" Instead of trying to make the music happen, I need to "let" it happen.

Such is the way with life. . . learning to "let it go" seems to be a life long pursuit for a lot of us. Try/fail, try/fail. . .but at least one can have the satisfaction of trying. Some don't try at all!

So, going back to the topic of music, I am going to see if I can channel all these emotions I have been feeling lately (my horoscope warned me about this! Ha! Thanks for the warning, Zoe!) and turn them into a positive. . . .music! It could be a really interesting piece (maybe I should call it "healthcare!" Sorry, inside joke. . .I couldn't resist!) We shall see. It is not that emotions are negative. They can be very positive, IF we remain in control. I think emotions are like little children. . . left unchecked, they can create a LOT of problems! But, when they are nurtured and monitored, they can become a total joy, an inspiration. They can show us what we need to do next!So I will turn mine into music after all. . . ."Life is music, music is life!"